experience to share

hey all..here is an experience to share..enjoy!! Hello Friends, I am Sheetal Gulati; I joined this life philosophy of Nichiren Daishonin in May 1996. I was a Young Phoenix studying in class 12th with no direction, no aim and no hope in my life. Above all my family was suffering from deep-rooted financial karma with huge amount of debts due on my father. To make things more worse my father was an alcoholic and there were constant fights in my family. Entering into the world of Soka was like a ray of hope for my family. First thing I learned from my mentor Ikeda Sensei was to have 'Big Dreams'. Believing in these words from the very 1st day I started learning my prayers and chanting regularly. The more I began to make efforts to seek my mentor and was applying the basics of Faith, Practice and study in my life, my family situation started improving. I could see clear-cut changes in my fathe's business and in my studies too. I was inducted in YWD chorus group- Golden Shower in 1998, which helped me to do my own Human Revolution by applying its Motto-Cheerful Blossoms, Faith like Gold. This training in special group helped me to awaken to my mission for kosen-rufu. With this actual proof I was able to introduced my 2 sisters and more than 20 relatives and friends to this practice in 6 months. In 2001, I was given the responsibility to take care of Delhi Students division. I plunged my self in home visiting students division by connecting their life to Sensei and in realizing their mission in life. This became a cause of victory as in September 2001, I was able to go for my 1st Youth Division Training Course to meet my mentor Ikeda Sensei with the money I had saved from my 1st job & came back with only one determination to send my younger sister Kajal to Soka University Of America who was in class 11th that time. Seeing my family situation it was an impossible determination which I had made and I didn't know how I will do it but I knew only 1 thing that I would do it for Sensei. Meeting Sensei became the turning point for my family as after 5 yrs my parents started chanting and took up this faith and sending Kajal to SUA, now became our family prayer. Braving all financial constraints & with Sensei's deep compassion Kajal is now a student of SUA since 2002.To pursue my further studies I took MBA in Finance and by applying faith at each step I scored 1st division each semester In 2003, I started with my own business, which was my long cherished dream and at the same time was given the responsibility of Delhi Young Phoenix Chief and Dy.YWD Chapter Chief. Taking care of each phoenix & YWD on behalf of Sensei became my greatest pride. I learned so much with each Young Phoenix and was able to challenge some of my weakest areas of my life. My day use to start early morning to meet my daimoku targets of 3 hrs, going for my work, activities, and traveling long distances for home visits, reading Gosho's on daily basis helped me to develop a deeper bond with my mentor. This good fortune started flowing in my family as my fathers business started flourishing and I too got the breakthrough for my business in India's best company's Dabur and Modi Group and I pledged Sensei to always work for my member's happiness. Because of this overflowing good fortune I accumulated as an YWD I met a kosen-rufu life partner. Basing completely on Sensei's Guidance and with the support of my seniors leaders I got married in August 2004 and moved from Delhi to Bangalore with 1 determination to fight even harder for Bangalore kosen-rufu. My new struggle was now to find a kosen-rufu job in Bangalore. Though it was a challenge as I was new to the place and people but I continued making efforts based on Sensei's guidance "The important thing is that each of you becomes an extremely capable person-a person of strength and ability of a thousand". I connected myself to my chapter members and started home visiting WD and ywd's. I made kosen-rufu my job as for 45 days after landing in Bangalore my day use to go in doing home visits, daimoku, reading gosho and Sensei's guidance. I even talked to some of our friends about this practice. In between I had applied for 3 jobs and went for my interviews. Instead of praying that I want a job I started praying that I want to achieve something impossible thru which I can bring glory to my mentor by Nov18th and to my utter surprise I got thru all the 3 jobs in October and 1 of them was biggest software company of India Infosys mystically in which my husband, sister and brother in-law also works. I cleared my written test, GD and final round of interview in 3 days and because of my efforts made in faith I got thru the exact department Finance for which I had prayed. As I decided to join on 11th October a huge struggle was waiting as I had US based client for which our working hours were from evening till 2-3 pm late in the night which means me and my husband have to work in totally opposite timing. It was as if devilish function was testing my faith but I decide not to give in and not to complain no matter what. I etched this Sensei's guidance in my heart " It is because there are formidable opponents and difficulties that we grow and become strong. Everything depends on your inner determination. When you have a strong inner resolve, a victorious outcome follows". Based on this guidance I prayed for strong life force as I never wanted to compromise for my practice, home visits, activities or giving time to my husband who is always been supportive in my each endeavor. I use to go for my work in the evening and use to come back around 3 am in the night, sleep for 4-5 hrs everyday and get up early morning to do my prayers with my husband before he leaves for work. I started visiting my members in the daytime and chanted hrs to meet my daimoku targets. Everyday is be a win or loose struggle but I decided not to give in to my weaknesses. And persevered each day to give 100% at my work place. As Nov 18th was approaching I was still continuing to pray without any doubt in the power of the Gohonzon for my determination to bring glory to Sensei. Not even 20 days had passed the benefits from the Gohonzon adorned in my life as after seeing our performances at our work 3 people were selected out of 18 in my team from my company and I was 1 of them to go for 1 month training in November to US- Pittsburgh to represent our company. My joy knew no bounds as 1st thing came to my mind was nothing but visiting Soka University Of America which was as equivalent to meeting Sensei. This was my dream since 2002 when kajal got admission in SUA but my visa was rejected during that time. And on seeking guidance that time my senior leader told me to make causes to raise and send more future division to SUA. When we practice our good fortune never lie far from us. I couldn't believe that Gohonzon has given me such a big opportunity. On the other hand my next challenge was to get the visa as my visa was already rejected earlier and my mind was completely haunted by this fear that I won't get the visa again. Towards my visa date 5th Nov, I started chanting fearlessly to the Gohonzon that only purpose of going to US is to visit SUA. There were people around me in the office who were jealous as it never happens that the company selects a new joinee without completing even 6 months to go onsite. There were voices around me who use to discourage me but I kept doing focused prayers. On my visa date 5th Nov I went to Chennai and kept chanting till the last minute for the visa counselete. I am happy to report that I got my visa just in 1 minute after getting interviewed. But as N.D says, "As practice progresses and understanding grows, the 3 obstacles and 4 devils emerge in confusing form." On 8th November we were told that only 1 person out of the 3 would be going. It was very mystic that on the same morning I read Toda Sensei's guidance " When we read gosho, we should receive it with our entire beings-with a spirit of 'YES' that's exactly right. This is the short cut to happiness." I knew that there would be obstacles till the last minute as it's not easy to achieve something great. I kept impossible daimoku target and home visits target for coming 10 days towards 18th Nov. Inspite of my impossible schedule I was happily enjoying my 2-3 hrs of daimoku and home visits with the life force of a Buddha which was directly flowing in my life basing on Gosho study everyday without fail as I was hardly sleeping for 4 hrs everyday. Finally on Nov 16th just 2 days before the significant day Nov 18th, I was told by the top management that I have been selected amongst the 3 who will be going. There were tears in my eyes for joy and even smile as again after 2 hrs I was told that the schedule for the training has been postponed to next year 2005. That moment I even made my determination even stronger that Gohonzon no matter what I am going to SUA this year and this time I will not allow any devilish function to enter in my environment. Though things and decision for my training were changing every minute but my determination didn't alter at all. I decided to cling to the Gohonzon, which is absolute, and never changing and while praying I started visualizing that I am at SUA. I was on the home visit next day before leaving for my work on 17th Nov. and I received a call from my team leader that something strange has happened and the client is on for the training as per earlier schedule. And I had to rush to the office to get my paper work done as we were leaving in 1 day's time Nov 19th. Yes - this is the power of Gohonzon as Sensei said-"Anyone would think that victory is impossible and that's probably how you feel right now but don't forget this marvelous Gohonzon we have. It has the power to transform what you'd normally think impossible into something possible. Those who give up before they try, thinking that it's impossible, don't really know the power of the Mystic Law. Only people who can bring for the Mystic law's power can succeed anything they try." I thanked Gohonzon and prayed to have a complete kosen-rufu trip and to get the best training for my project. Before leaving I even wrote a letter to Sensei and reported this great victory finally on Nov 18th. On landing to Pittsburgh on nov 20th 1st thing I did was I contacted the SGI community center and it was so mystic that the cultural center of SGI in Pittsburgh was just 5 min away from my hotel. I landed on Saturday and attended my 1st meeting on Sunday On 4th Dec my dream came true when I stepped into SUA. I felt so much of gratitude for my mentor Ikeda Sensei for building such a great university. Mountains, valleys& trees surrounds the entire university, as it seems it's a natural creation of this Universe. Each student is so unique as they are bonded with deep friendship and with a great sense of mission. I went from 1 corner to the other and experienced the joy of being at SUA. Ikeda library was out of the world as u name the book its there and students study 24 hrs and sometimes sleeps on the warm couches provided by the faculty. Founder's hall where all exhibitions are held - it is surrounded by all the countries flags and lotus flowers, recreation center where gym, swimming pool, dancing room, games, are held. The student's dorms are full of compassion and warmth as though each student is from different countries but the common string of bond with their founder, which is flowing in them, is one. The name of the contributors is engraved on the walls of the SUA. I was also able to attend the world peace prayer in California cultural Center with SUA students. That 1-day at SUA has helped me to develop even deeper bond with my mentor and to understand sensei's vision for global citizens in a better way. I came back after successfully completing my training in Pittsburgh on 22nd Dec and now I have only 1 determination to make, which I have written to Sensei also- In this year of youth and development-I determine to raise more capable students from BSG who will study at SUA and will accomplish Sensei's vision for world peace by becoming global citizens. I also determine to become financial pillar for BSG and SUA. Thank you. Sheetal Gulati Bangalore BSG

Welcome

Welcome Shoo Koon to Human Castle. Here some info of our new member here Name : Ma Shook Koon University : University of Adelaide @ Master in Electrical Engineering Location : Australia A big welcome to Shoo Koon, may you enjoy yourself . Hug, welcome.. Principal : Carryn Lim

Weird Feeling Today...

Yup! As the title goes, I do have weird feelings today. Don't know why or how or what... Just feeling not right. Anyway, Tadika was on holiday today for Cheng Meng. So, I took the opportunity trying to meet my co-supervisor to read my corrected thesis and grant me a "yes" to bind it into hard cover. Tommorow is the last day for us to hand in our hard cover thesis... Looks like it is going to be a problem for me to pass up tomorrow as my thesis has not yet corrected by my co-supervisor. She was not in today. Well, I went back to fetch my junior housemate and her friend to KLIA. They are flying over to Pulau Langkawi for their industrial training. I'm going to miss her. Then, I reached Kajang at 12.40pm. Ate my lunch - bread plus 2 eggs. Took a nap and then bathe. After that I chanted for one hour. Then off to write my book sharing and later to dinner... I think I was not used to such FREE day. All this while I was rushing from here to there, doing things, making calls, SMS-ing... Today seem like I have nothing to do and I am not used to it. Tomorrow will be a brand new day for me and it will be a busy day at TSS and at night I'll be attending to Youth Leader's Meet at Kaikan. Well, hopefully my co-supervisor will sign my Thesis form that serves as the pasport for me to be officialy handing up my thesis and case close.

I was thinking... 10 years in TSS... Can I make it? Will I make it? I was thinking of furthering my Masters in Child Education or Education or in English LIterature... See how it goes. Good day to all of you!

Back In P.D....

Right, I'm back in P.D. It took me one and a half hour to get back to P.D this evening because of the rain. Usually, it only takes an hour's drive back. Well, I drove quite slowly because of the heavy rain. Well, it's quite nice driving in the rain. I don't know why, but, I sort of like to do that. Anyway, I took all the safety measure to ensure my safety and also the safety of others by driving carefully. Don't worry. My mom got flu, well, I just got to know today when I phoned her this evening to tell that I'm picking her up after work at 7pm. I'm always happy to see my mom and my sister. Well, they are my family mah, of course everyone will be happy seeing their own family members doing well and so forth. But, for me, there are other feelings besides that. Something deep down that cannot be explained by words. Perhaps... ahh... Just don't know how to put it in words. I am thrilled everytime going home. Seeing my mom, sister, and my beloved doggie - Tuxido. Heheheh... A good dog. Well trained... Really! Hah!

Well, I'm waiting for the result of my Secondary Structure Prediction on my Protein. Have to do last minute research for my Thesis before handing up and sending for hard cover binding. Which I reckon it is quite costly. Anyway, Once in a lifetime mah, right? SO... pay lor... ehheh

Em, got my results from the web based program. Now have to continue work d... See you guys later. Tomorrow I'll have to depart from P.D at 5.30 am... Cool? HEheh I have to start working and get some sleep ASAP. Bye!

What we found

Me and Shoo Koon are trying to get member's blog to add in sokalink, but found out lot of nonsense stuff that almost drive me nut. I respect their opinion,but the words they used are so "cheap" and now I know how the other side of people view about sensei and Soka Gakkai. I want so much to fight back, but the blog comment doesn't seem to be able for me to write anything there. Now I think, its good also, atleast I not like other people who only said bad things bout other peope.In the world of blog, anyone are free to give their opinion and feeling. So, I respect that. It make me wonder, how am I going to protect Gakkai and let other know the truth of Soka Gakkai and the teaching? I am now actually still very angry somehow.. 1. Home visit- home visit members who is active and also not active, know what they feel and share good stuff. Take them out to meeting, let them know by their own rather just listen to we talk. 2- Human revolution- show them we are good, SGI members are good. Respect other and sincere to anyone so that people help us to spread the good character of SGM members. 3- Shakubuku- they are many people out there are so pity and get wrong concept about religion even about sokagakkai, if we not go out and talk, there will be more and more pity person out there. And we really need to learn gosho to share with other.. Its time to move not to learn. ya, now I remembered what Teh san told us.. 4- Read and share- share whatever material u read to members and friends, although sometime people not actually listen to us and may feel that we are irritating, but atleast in the irritating way, they will remember what we said and not easily believe what other told them . 5- Ask- you don't understand, u must ask, ask for answer, not wait for answer. If we feel curious why Gakkai doing this doing that, always question about the objectives, why don't we just point the question to the people involved and get satisfactory answer? Even to people who u don't like the way they do thing, face to face tell them to improve, rather than carry the feeling entire your life and sooner leave Gakkai which for me is stupid and silly. 6- Find your own answer- ever in the situation where u think everything is just perfect and suddently someone said thing that spoil the good concept and u are somehow like questioning the fact? Back to no 5, ask! Find your own answer! Not merely listen to one side of people, listen to another side. But u must have strong enough faith to justify which one is right and correct. 7- Use ur heart- believe what u feel not merely what u listen. If all the people u heard bout opinion saying only bad bout certain thing in No5, u need to get involve in organization to feel by your own, spent time and make your judgment later. lastly, this blogger seeking make me realize of every Gakkai's member global mission, to spread the truth, to spread the teaching, to lead people to absolute happiness, only people obtaining absolute happiness, and ourselves obtain victory in life, we show pple how great the teaching are and how happy we are in Soka Gakkai. Bravo to everyone!

A New Path Uncover before Me...

30th March 2005, 2.55pm... There goes my Thesis presentation. It was quite O.K although I did not so good or not so bad. What am I saying... I'm sorry that I couldn't think straight right now. Why? I shall explain in greater detail later. Back to my Thesis presentation, my pemeriksa is Dr. Wan Kiew Lian who is famour for his "Shooting" of students. Well, very fortunate for me, he didn't shoot me but rather ask me some questions only. There are two reasons for this. The first is either he doesn't really know what I am doing. Or, he really have nothing to ask me about. Well, after my presentation, everything was so gret and I felt happy. For your information, I am the second last student on the last day to present.

Later when I reached home, I received a call from Mr. Lee - headmaster of Tadika Seri Soka. He arranged me to meet with Mr. Choo (General Director of SGM) for a second interview. I gladly said yes to an interview on 31st March 2005 at 9am. I was interviewed together with another girl and both of us are hired. The other girl will only come in next month for she has a job right now and required to give a month's notice before she can go off.

As for me, I am to start working immediately. When? 1st of April. I was like: Hahh? Yesterday Thesis presentation, today interview, tomorrow start working..." Isn't this a little bit too fast? But, I took all these as boundless fortunes from Gohonzon. Great planning!

Today, 1st of April 2005. I started my life as a Kindergarten teacher in Tadika Seri Soka. I began as assistant to teachers to get used to how to teach, and also to get familiar with the children. I woke up at 6.30am. Did my gongyo and daimoku for 20 minutes then I'm off to TSS. I reached there at about 7.30am and found my way to the places and what should I do and so on with the help from Teacher Pui Yin. She's such a wonderful teacher.

In the morning, children will start their class at 8.30 am. In between 8.30 - 8.45am, they are required to come to the lobby and do exercises together (dancing...). Then they are allowed to go to the toilet to clean themselves. After that, the class resumes until 11.30 am. In between they will have a rest time for them to have some snacks that they brought from home to school to be eaten. I am assisting Teacher Lim today because her assistant Pn. Nora didn't come today. The children are just great! I really mean it! At the moment I see them, all I will do is smile to them and embrace them. They are so cute!! Clumsy too! Haah!! It was my first ever experience to be together with some 30 children for the whole morning. Children are really a natural "FRIEND-MAKER". In less than 10 minutes, they are ready to hold your hand when you are walking with them. They are trusting you as someone that can be trusted by them, someone they can count on.

When it comes to 11.30am, it is regarded as "WAR TIME" by the teachers. Why? We need to send the children off to their repective cars driven by their parents or parent's friend. Here, let me give a round of applause to the teachers for such a unique system. For all the cars that are coming in to fetch the children, they are given a number each and their children had their numbers written and memorize. We, the teachers too must memorize every single student's number. By the time we sent off the children, it was already 12.10pm. Then, today is my duty with another teacher to clean up the classroom. We swept, moped, cleaned the whole class. By the time we finished, it was already 12.50pm, leaving us to have a 10 minutes rest before the afternoon class starts at 1pm until 4pm.

At 4pm, the same process happens again. After that, it will be 4.30pm whereby we have staff meeting every Friday. Today's meeting was quite long. It lasted until 6.20pm. After the meeting, I rushed back even forgotten to punch my card... Die larr... Just now only I remembered... Aiseh... Teruknya. When I reached Kajang, it was about 6.40pm and I took my bath, washed my clothes. At 7.05pm I left to Kaikan again for apractice session with a cellist from Japan. Reached kaikan at 7.30pm and did my gongyo and began practice session until 10.30pm. The practice session was more like a workshop whereby the Japanese cellist shared her thought on cello. We gained a lot from him.

I reached home at 11.30pm after sending my comrade - Shu Tyug to her home in Sungai Long. Hope that she's all right. She has fever and still came for the practice. Pray for her health.

As for me, today marked the fresh departure for me on the path of Soka Education System and also in Kosen-rufu. I just couldn't believe that I've actually spent more than 10 hours in Bunka Kaikan and Tadika Seri Soka... I never thought that I will one day have a chance like this to serve the community. Especially the children. It is a valuable, priceless experience.

My eyes now is hardly opening... Just tired in terms of body but never my spirit! Have pledged to Gohonzon that I will give out my life to the Soka Education and for the sake of the children's happiness at whatever cost!

Please take care of your health. I will always pray for you all!

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last few days i went to Kajang to visit my friends and also to attend Anna Academia's Convo, she grad with flyng colour. Bravo to her! I didn't manage to hear hers sharing as i went to another meeting . Paiseh paiseh.. but atleast i get to hear the last part of hers sharing, not bad lo. Then i went ot Arun Gandhi talk on "the Lesson i learn from my grandfather". That was the good one, if i miss it, I will regret. Just received Anna's Sms, she finished hers viva already,now she is totally free from school stuff.. Yeah!! But... u know what i mean. This journey to Kajang and Kl, quite alot of unexpected thing happen, sometimes i wonder why and how and what if and alot more when some little thing happen. Well,thing not really happen as i thought, weird but real..confused?? me either.... I dunno how to describe certain thing and certain feeling, but,it's time to review.. As my first time went to Kajang, the people there are keen in 24K, not to say Anna who mind only think of hers members, HSD,home visit, meeting and etc, she really rock man! respect and i really got lot thing to learn.. what is my point for this article? OMG,i have no point and i am out of my mind.. i am just write nonesense. hmm.. i think i off now, will continue later if i got my point.. or i found my point, or anything...

Exams....

Today is 25th March 2005. A special day for me and a day that is full of deep feelings. At last I have managed to finished my 7 papers. I was so happy that I couldn't stop myself from laughing and smilling to everyone. It is just a miracle how I managed to survive these few weeks. To me, DAIMOKU is the source of my strength and also encouragements from my fellow comrades have kept me going in my final semester, final exams. Today is my last paper of my three years in UKM. Actually my exam started at 8.30am this morning. While I was in the car having discussions last minutely and all the topics that we have ran through in the last 15 minutes actually did came out during the exam. I'm very grateful to Gohonzon for all this. This morning during that one hour daimoku and gongyo, all I think of is to bring my friends to tonight's career talk in Cheras Kaikan. I just feel that I need to really go all out for the 24K campaign. All I can think of is just to bring as many friends as possible and as many shakubuku as possible. During the prayers, I prayed that all the Youths will awaken to our mission as to why we want to achieve 24K before 3rd of May. Lastly, I prayed that I will win in my last paper and prayed deeply for my fellow comrade's health and happiness also not forgetting my three promises that I made to Gohonzon every time I chant.

I managed to ask one of my coursemate to go for tonight's meeting. In fact, I have told her last week and when we are just after the exam, she came to me asking :"What time will you come and fetch me?" I was taken aback by her sincerity and I was really happy about her initiative. Truely what my chapter's WD chief said :"Prayed for the Youths to come out from the earth and to be shakubuku-ed by all of us." Every now and then I started to prayed that I will be surrounded by people that really need to know this great Buddhism and also hope that all of them will continue to chant and receive benefit from Gohonzon. Hopefully I can get another friend of mine going to tonight's meeting.

At first I thought that my paper - Microbe's Metabolisme is 2 hours and I started writing quite swiftly thinking that I might not have enough time to finish up my paper as there were 8 esei question with each bringing from 10 - 20 marks, totaling 100 marks. Well, I sort of left with one questions that I have forgotten the facts at 10 o'clock and thought that I have another 30 minutes for it. During the last 15 minutes, an announcement was made stating that we cannot go out of the examination hall and the man didn't read out my course's code. So when I looked back at my examination slip, it states that the exam is actually 2 and a half hour. Much to my relief that I still have quite plenty of time to finish off my last question.

I wanted to go out earlier before times up, but, later made a decision to stay in the hall until 11 am. Why? The answer is just simple. I thought I would have missed the hall and the excitement of having exams in the exam hall and this will be the last time that I am going to sit for exams in this hall. The next time when I come back would be the time that I am going to walk out of this hall graduating as a Microbiologist. I just feel weird suddenly... Deep feelings just keep coming from within my heart.

Anyway, I still need to study as I am having Gosho exam this Sunday anf my thesis presentation is next Wednesday. But, I am already feeling so happy and free because I have found my mission and what I want to achieve in my later years. Evryday is like a beautiful day and I said to myself everyday is a Kosen-rufu day and this will be the path of my life from now on. From now on it will be 24K all along until we really reach beyond the target! Yeah! From now on it will be and exciting day everyday!

A Spiritual Journey

A Spiritual Journey Review by SHARIL DEWA, The Star (Malaysia), Oct 31, 2003 Wonderful Encounters: Recollections of Meetings With Unforgettable People From Around the World Author: Daisaku Ikeda Publisher: Penerbit Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia The folk he met included Datuk Seri Dr Mahathir Mohamad, Italian football star Roberto Baggio, and American jazz musician Herbie Hancock. Despite coming from very different social and political backgrounds, all 30 individuals featured in the book have one theme in common: each one strives to grow towards becoming a better citizen of the world. In his dialogue with Ikeda, who is the third president of Soka Gakkai, an international Buddhist movement that promotes education, world-wide cultural exchange and the establishment of world peace, the Malaysian premier stated that leaders are always confronted with tough problems and difficult solutions, which should be tackled head on, as by running away from the tasks at hand would equal defeat in one’s personal growth. “There is no ocean without waves,” said Dr Mahathir. “Only by overcoming hardship can leaders shine with even greater brilliance.” He said all great leaders should actively seek out and take on challenges. At the time of Ikeda’s first meeting with the premier in February 1988, Dr Mahathir was in the midst of political unrest, with United Malays National Organisation (Umno) being deemed unlawful by the local courts. Though he looked tired and worn out, Dr Mahathir possessed a steely determination to see the crisis out before admitting victory or defeat, noted Ikeda. “Without getting to the root of the problem, without giving a situation a chance, we cannot say that we have tried if we haven’t looked at the cause of the breakdown,” Ikeda wrote. With his first meeting with Dr Mahathir, 15 years before the Prime Minister’s retirement, Ikeda witnessed firsthand one man’s determination to change his country for the better, and in the process allowing himself the chance to grow. Likewise, American jazz musician Herbie Hancock, who met Ikeda while on tour in Tokyo in 1999, told the Buddhist leader that at the age of 59, “I am still growing, I am in the process of development.” Ikeda’s account of Hancock’s personal development lies in the fact that the musician is not afraid to travel on the path less traveled. Hancock, who has been a follower of Soka Gakkai Buddhism since 1972, said to Ikeda that “music is an expression of what it is to live. If we don’t enquire into how we should live, how can we create good music?” As music is an expression of one’s life, the struggles and the victories over difficulties in Hancock’s personal life found their way into his music, causing him to create sounds that he had never produced before. Instead of repeating his past success, Hancock decided to move forward, fusing different styles of music, all the while understanding that his new musical direction may alienate his fan base. However, his desire to create a new sound that “would touch the public” garnered him an Oscar for his musical score in the film Round Midnight in 1987. “I used to think that music brought people happiness, that it had the power to change people’s hearts. But now I know that personal growth is the source for creating better and deeper music. “I will continue doing my best to contribute to the development of music while polishing the spirit to earnestly seek what it is to be truly human,” he declared. Ikeda, who first met Italian footballer Roberto Baggio in Tokyo in 1993, a year before the World Cup, remembers the sportsman as a man who was very focused on what he had to do, and he did not allow fame or popularity to sway him in any way. “No matter how I am criticised, I am what I am. People call me a superstar, but I’m just a human being. Whether I am praised or blamed, I play the game the way I play it,” he said. Despite having three major knee surgeries at the start of his professional career, Baggio, who was asked to consider giving up football for good, was adamant this was his chosen profession and that he was sticking to it no matter what. “Buddhism teaches us that we are responsible for our own happiness or unhappiness, and I was determined to make myself happy in the only way I know how: by playing to the best of my ability,” Baggio said. Though he led his team to victories over Nigeria, Spain and Bulgaria in the 1994 World Cup, Baggio’s leg injuries might have kept the Italians from defeating the Brazilians. Instead of harbouring ill feelings, Baggio noted the team that is the most determined to win will do so. “Everyone is created equal and everyone has the same desire to succeed. Once you decide to win, you must do so, you must give your best; any less than your best are mere excuses. “A pro must win, be it personally or professionally. It is his mission to keep winning and inspiring courage in others. “The idea behind these (football) matches is that everyone is doing their best to win, and in that sense all the teams are winners. The losers are the ones who never tried,” said Baggio. Written from Ikeda’s point of view and in short chapters, with each section focusing on the author’s encounter with an individual, Wonderful Encounters describes how each subject managed to overcome the obstacles in his or her life, which proves that such people face the same personal and professional struggles that haunt everyone else, famous or not. Although some of the individuals featured in the book are followers of Soka Gakkai Buddhism, Ikeda looks through their triumphs from a humanitarian point of view. In short, Wonderful Encounters is one man’s experience with the people of the world who are, in their own ways, trying to find out what it means to be human.

And What If We're Betrayed?

I would like to share a personal experience that was published in Spanish World Tribune. This is the English version. And What If We're Betrayed? By Alina Marrero English Translation by Andy Sanchez The Lotus Sutra teaches that everyone possesses the supreme, lofty state of Buddhahood, source of infinite hope and courage. In other words, courage and hope do not exist someplace far away, beyond our reach, neither do we obtain them from without. Anyone who sets his/her life in rhythm with the universe, no matter where they live and go about, can tap into a fearless life state, vast as the universe, and then cause this life state to shine with great radiance. Daisaku Ikeda, (Guidance offered at the 22nd Headquarter Leaders Meeting held in Tokyo General Headquarters) No doubt about it. She wanted me to get angry. "A friend whom you trusted betrayed you and me," the person told me. For her own personal reasons, the woman speaking to me was full of anger, and wanted my solidarity. "She's a hypocrite!", she said. In less than a second, I recalled recently read articles by President Ikeda, such as The Cure for War. I also remembered advice received from friends in faith throughout 20 years of practice, as well as my first encounter with Josei Toda. From the onset, Mr. Toda became my model for forgiveness, courage, personal security, unshakeable faith, and solidarity with humanity. It's a model I've constructed with the building blocks of President Ikeda's guidance, where Mr. Toda is continually mentioned. Yet, it is not only Josei Toda that our mentor (from whom I've learned to learn) mentions in his writings. Charles Chaplin and Victor Hugo, among others, are two human beings that President Ikeda also talks about, and from whom I've also learned to learn. From Victor Hugo, specifically his novel Les Miserables, I learned that a determining factor for human rehabilitation is to never lose trust in the innate goodness of others, no matter what they do. All these things and more, such as the guidance about the three types of friendship, as well as the Law of Cause and Effect -that expounds that everything that occurs to us is information about our karma - intermingled in my mind. Yet, something stood out with unmistakable prominence. It was the feeling that I had suddenly acquired an essential skill, a specific wisdom that is not consciously achieved, but arises naturally. I reflected upon this: prayers are answered, of course. But if we pray to learn forgiveness, the occasion to forgive must arise so that we may learn. If we wish to learn bravery, we must understand that, before taking action, we will not learn what bravery is. When our goals are big and profound, equally big, profound, and difficult! will be the obstacles we confront. Being betrayed by a friend is a hurt more painful than being betrayed in love. There I was talking to someone, simultaneously realizing I also harbored the same immense pain in my lifet. Yet, in a flash, all my years of faith, practice, and study arrived to the rescue. This is what actually occurred: I was struck most by the suffering resulting from the terror felt by the person before me, as she considered possible consequences from the event she narrated. Her immense fear and anguish moved her to seek solidarity against her betrayer, from someone (me) who had also been betrayed. Thus united, we would win the battle. We would trust the betrayer no more, not ever. In fact, we would warn everyone against her. We'd save humanity from her. But, dialogue with her about this issue? Never!! Waste of time. She wasn't going to change. And since she wasn't going to change, she had to be gotten rid of. This type of reaction, prevalent in so many people, is to be expected. But in the en, it proves to absolutely ineffective. Throughout the ages, great men and women have united with a single voice: hate is not answered with hate. Bertolt Brecht, in his poem, To Our Successors says: "Hate, even against degradation, twists our facial features. Anger, even against injustice, grates the voice." Treason can prove to be an excellent excuse for hating, and hate, one of the best excuses for disunity. On the other hand, justice is unifying. When justice triumphs, it triumphs for all, even for those who've erred. But, in this case, who erred? I decided to talk to the person before me about no other treason except that committed by me, and to simply deal with her as the human being she was. She was afraid of confronting her betrayer, supposedly to prevent creating a chain reaction. "If I tell this woman how I feel," she said, "she's going to create trouble. She'll tell everyone her own version of the story, and they're going to believe her. Then so and so are going to get on my case, scolding and screaming at me. I'm sick of it!" "Who are you talking about?" was all I could think of saying, "and why do you allow them to treat you like that? President Ikeda encourages us to say what must be said," I reminded her, "and to dare to take steps toward being who we really are, no matter our being misunderstood, and let me tell you, nowhere in his guidance have I seen your name mentioned as an exception. In none of the Goshos written by Nichiren have I read that Buddhism works for everyone, except you, or that wars everywhere will end if you allow people to treat you like that." Right then and there, I reminded her of several of President Ikeda's acts of courage, as well as how he trusted us, considering neither our imperfect nature, nor that we actually make mistakes. End of conversation. I knew I had to take action. I sat in front of my Gohonzon, and determined not to lose faith in the innate goodness in everyone. I called the person whom I felt had betrayed me, finally dialogued about my feelings, and went back to chanting. Several days later the person I felt betrayed me and I talked again. She had chanted ten hours reflecting on herself. "My worse disloyalty is against myself," she revealed, "and when you spoke to me a few days ago, I felt ashamed. I determined to be loyal to myself, and to win. I spoke with the person who talked to you about what I did, and she told me what she thought of me. I, in turn, told her my opinion of her and, in the end, we finished our conversation without ending up as enemies, talking about President Ikeda's guidance, and how we saw each other in the movement for kosen-rufu." While she talked, I felt moved. Something wonderful had occurred with the three of us. She had done something very brave, and so had the other person. And so had I. Impossible not to share victory between the three. I profoundly reflected on my own disloyalty towards myself, towards others, as well as on my fears, since these two women, functioning as mirrors, helped me see that. The next day, the three of us received work related benefit, and arrived at the same conclusion: What could have become a gossipy muddle, a cause for disunity, we turned it into a vehicle for growth. What an honor to be working with these two wonderful women for Kosen-rufu in this lifetime! It occurred that, precisely when I had to make a crucial decision, I reacted responding to a burning desire to make a difference, and the environment, inseparable from us as it is, responded. We can all make a difference in these times of war. President Ikeda has said that one human revolution in a single person can change the destiny of a nation, indeed, the history of humanity. This occurs when, in our daily lives we set Buddhism in action, with absolute confidence in this great truth. This is something me Carryn need to learn about.....

Inspiration, Wisdom, and Anecdotes

A group of students were asked to list what they thought were the present "Seven Wonders of the World." Though there was some disagreements, the following received the most votes: 1. Egypt's Great Pyramids 2. Taj Mahal 3. Grand Canyon 4. Panama Canal 5. Empire State Building 6. Stonehenge 7. China's Great Wall While gathering the votes, the teacher noted that one student had not finished her paper yet. So she asked the girl if she was having trouble with her list. The girl replied, "Yes, a little. I couldn't quite make up my mind because there are so many." The teacher said, "Well, tell us what you have, and maybe we can help." The girl hesitated, then read, "I think the ‘Seven Wonders of the World' are: 1. to See 2. to Hear 3. to Touch 4. to Taste 5. to Feel 6. to Laugh 7. and to Love The room fell silent. You could hear a pin drop. The things we overlook as simple and ordinary and that we take for granted are truly wondrous!

Fortune from Gohonzon

I had two great gifts from Gohonzon yesterday. I chanted from 2.30 to 3.30pm. Upon finished chanting, I thought of going online for a while until 4pm and I did. Just when I connect the phone line back to my house phone, a call came in and the conversation is as below:

Mrs. Lim: Hello, can I speak to Anna?

Me: I am, who's speaking pls?

Mrs. Lim: I'm Mrs. Lim from Tadika Seri Soka.

(I was puzzled at that time. I don't know what to say or think. I was BLANK!)

Me : Oh, Is there anything I can do for you?

Mrs. Lim: Well, yes. Are you interested in coming to teach in TSS?

Me : Em... yes. In fact I am planing to go for interview after my exam and Thesis presentation.

Mrs. Lim : Is that so? We need a teacher that can teach music. The previos Malay teacher who taught music resigned. When can you come for an interview with TSS principle?

At this point, I was elated, confused and blank. Gohonzon really geng lah... Really!!! The second present from Gohonzon came just after the first. Two in a row! I received a call from my senior Chun Hoe.

Chun Hoe: Hello, Anna? I'm Chun Hoe, free to talk a while?

Me : Oh, hi! Yup, I'm free now.

Chun Hoe: Congratulations! You have passed Akademeia Training!

Me : Oh, results out already?

Chun Hoe:Yup. We will be having Akademeia Convo meet on the 26th this month. However,

I'd like you to do a favour for me.

Me : Oh, what's that?

Chun Hoe: Can you share your experience during the meet? About how you do your Akademeia,

most importantly share about shakubuku.

Me : Oh, but, I only shakubuku a few people only worh...

Chun Hoe:Few people also people mah... Can ah?

Me :O.k!

It was a double bonus for me yesterday. I was so down the night before and luckily Shu Ting was there to encourage me. If not, I already given up studying for Molecular Biology exam today. Couldn't help myself from really thank Gohonzon from the bottom of my heart. I prayed that I will get to teach in TSS successfully ASAP. Actually I was quite worried as what I want to do during the holidays. I wanted to continue going all out for kosen-rufu here in Kajang and with that I will need to find a job to support myself. I chanted to Gohonzon, actually I promised Gohonzon 3 things:

1. I'll go all out (my life and whole energy) in Kosen-rufu battles

2. I'll go all out (my life and whole energy) in my studies

3. I'll go all out (my life and whole energy) in cultural practices

I made the above 3 promise to Gohonzon during when I was in my second year second semester. That time I chanted for a Industrial Training place near my house in Kajang. I promised to Gohonzon that I'll go for home visitations everynight if I am given a place near Kajang. And I did.

Today, another present from Gohonzon. I received a mail from my friend Nicholas Chua from India. A big parcel was posted to my house in P.D. I just can't wait to go back and look at it. For your info, Nicholas has been my pen friend since form 4. He's from Port Klang. heheh.. Cute guy, tapi younger than me and sudah berpunya. Heheheh... Well, it is full of surprises from Gohonzon everyday!

These few weeks I've been chanting 3-4 hours perday to keep my spirits high during the Finals. Now, it's down to 2 papers from the initial 7 papers and my Thesis presentation is on the 30th March, 2.55-3.10pm. Got to go now! See you guys!

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Aloha and Sayonara

Finally, I finished my last paper on computer knowledge. Yeah. But, after visited my own blog, I realize that soon enough need to change the info bout myself from Acad S/02 to graduate/ 05, feeling weird, my life as a student will officially finish after Wednesday, now I have to start worry about my future, my future career, my future planning and etc. i am very blur here. Anna atleast know what she want, Zephyr don't need to worry as he still have one more year in USM.What should I do to my life? What do I want? Without any reason, I rejected a job that offered to me two week ago, why? I also don't know, I just not yet ready as I don't know what I want. My life will getting more and more blur if I don't start to chant for wisdom and chant for fortune. Today, me and my housemates went to USM to take photo, I will leave USM soon enough, three year in USM, I never like USM, I never feel I am one of the 30,000 students. I don't know why, I just don't like it although its one of the best University in Malaysia. So I should say, I not really enjoys my Uni life. I miss the chance and now I have to leave. For all SD who will soon enter University, do appreciate every single moment in University and take time looking around, find a good friend there and live life with no regret. Today, I dint get myself any guidance or study anything, so, I have nothing to share. But u guys are always welcome to link the site at the sokalink, u will get yourself many useful material and guidance, do share with other. I will leave Penang on 26 March, maybe will take off from blogging. For the time being, Anna is here to rescure the blog. Do continue to support us. See ya.

President Ikeda's Daily Determination

THE ABUNDANCE OF LIFE Today, I rededicate myself to Kosen-rufu: To be strong so that nothing can upset my peace of mind To talk of health, happiness and hope to every person I meet To make friends feel that there is something good and beautiful in them To look at the sunny side of everything and to be optimistic about life To think only the best, work towards goind and expecting only the best. To be just as happy about the successes of others as I am about my own. To forget any mistakes of the past and to press forward to greater achievement in the future. To give so much time to improving myself, that I have no time to criticise others. To be too strong for fear, too kind for anger and too happy for worry. Tolift my heart in faith each day, so that the Gohonzon may show forth in my life.

---- DAILY ENCOURAGEMENT ----

A person who is always trying to be the most earnest, who is always trying to take more action than anyone else, will certainly create a golden history. He or she will, for sure, open up a great path towards a truly glorious life! To be concerned only with your own happiness is egoism.To aim for the happiness of yourself together with others is the spirit of humanism. Let's confidently share the supreme philosophy of Buddhism with others.Throughout the world people await! * "'Joy' means that oneself and others together experience joy. ... then both oneself and others together will take joy in their possession of wisdom and compassion." (Ongi kuden, Gosho Zenshu, page 761, The Record of the Orally Transmitted Teachings, page 146) The key point is that joy is something we share with others. To be concerned on you with one's own happiness is egoism. To claim you care only about the happiness of others is hypocrisy. Genuine happiness is becoming happy together with others. (The Wisdom of the Lotus Sutra, Volume 5, page 37) "When the spring of victory comes after a winter of harsh trials, everything is transformed into happiness and joy. Without having cried, you cannot genuinely laugh; without having suffered, you cannot savour real joy. I’m sure there are times when, in the midst of some difficulty, you think ‘Why me?’ But that in fact is your chance to fulfil the mission you have chosen. The deeper your suffering, the greater your mission." SGI Newsletter No. 6381, The New Human Revolution—Vol. 17: Chap. 1, Main Bastion 46 --- DAILY GOSHO --- "And yet, though one might point at the earth and miss it, though one might bind up the sky, though the tides might cease to ebb and flow and the sun rise in the west, it could never come about the prayers of the practitioner of the Lotus Sutra would go unanswered."

guidance to share

"...the obstacles to kosen-rufu are not external, but internal. We limit ourselves through our cowardice and weakness, which give rise to a defeatist attitude and make us think that we will never succeed. Arrogance, meanwhile, leads to negligence and indolence, which will bring about our downfall. "It is therefore crucial to overcome such negative tendencies and shatter our delusions. Doing so requires tremendous determination. We need to be firmly resolved to achieve our goals and chant to the Gohonzon with a strong pledge to realize kosen-rufu. Furthermore, we need to take courageous action. Taking action creates momentum and power." SGI Newsletter No. 6381, The New Human Revolution—Vol. 17: Chap. 1, Main Baion 45, translated March 14th, 2005 --- "If you are passive, you can’t demonstrate real ability. If you only take action when people tell you to, you will not savour the true vitality of life. The important thing is to decide that you are personally responsible for kosen-rufu in your community and take the initiative. Stand up as the protagonist of your local organization. That’s the way of life of a Bodhisattva of the Earth. If you do that, you will experience joy and strength welling up from your being." SGI Newsletter No. 6378, The New Human Revolution—Vol. 17: Chap. 1, Main Bastion 43, translated March 11th, 2005

Sharing

Dear all, This is a journal entry by a young lady, Mei Kei. She is only 19 yrs old and taking her STPM this year. A full scholar from TAR College and many many responsibilities. When I was reading her journal entry. I couldn't help but deeply moved by her undaunting spirit to challenge. Read on and stand up to succumb the challenges you face. This should be the spirit of youth and a disciple of Ikeda Sensei. If she can do it, you can do it too! Happy reading!! --- I came across a lot of Ikeda Sensei's guidances on youth, that youth who are able to go through suffering are truly lucky. Although I did not disagree with this phrase, I never really felt it..till lately. This year will be an extremely busy year ahead. STPM, being so new in music,a senior in Taekwondo, and just as I was pushing myself further in kosenrufu and Soka Gakkai activities...It was a suffering time indeed, especially when I thought of joining in KK, I knew it will turn my whole schedule upside down and leave me with no time to rest. I have to rush to places, from college to Taekwondo, from KK practice to another Taekwondo, to meetings at night and homevisitations whenever I can afford it...Everyday struggle begins as early as 4.30am or on Sundays (except 2nd week), 5.45am...and all these ends as late as 12am or 1am everyday. And not to forget I have to travel to college every Mon-Sat for 1 1/2 hour or 2 hours everyday. Now, due to the lack of sleep, my travelling time becomes my daily sleeping time. Sometimes I just felt so exhausted that I just wanted to forget everything and let myelf sleep. Or I could just turn my handphone alarm to sound at 5.15am instead of the unusually early 4.30am, because I wake up so early to chant anyway. I was worried if I could not handle it after all...or did not score a result good enough to ensure me place in Local U, or was put into a local U too far for me to fulfill my mission in my own district (or lets just say I don't like to leave home). I was struggling with myself,catching up with studies, projects, attend and prepare meetings (and must prepare them well too, for the main purpose is to make sure every member had something to bring back and felt encouraged),with classmates so competitive that I never fail to feel so stupid in class. And surprisingly, as I joined in Culture Group, all of a sudden all other groups like Junior Division and Student Division, seems to have something to do with me as well..not to forget YWD and High School Division which I am already a person-in-charge. Thinking of all the meetings I have to attend sends a shiver down my spine.. However, lately I was able to tell myself, "I was beginning to enjoy the process of struggling and suffering. I began to truly felt that youth who are able to suffer is truly lucky.In fact I was rather hoping I could be like other people or my seniors...suffer even more.But still, they had their mission and I had mine.If all of us were to have the same mission, I have no reason to live.I enjoy the suffering now, I enjoy seeing the transformation in me,I enjoy struggling and winning over myself.I just enjoy it...to be able to suffer is just..great!" I remember telling one of my members briefly how my schedule will be like this month. I do agree with her she say that my busy life now is indeed fulfilling..in a sense. I told her that I believe the reason I have to go through all these is to be able to encourage a single person...to be able to show actual proof, how I go through the year admist facing an important exam and pacing up in kosenrufu as welI.I still have got a lot to learn. It was just on last Tuesday where I had to attend a YWD Prep meet for out divisional discussion meet in March. After facing two stressful tests and going off to All Leaders' Meet in IPA the night before, I reached home late and tired out.As I haven't got the time to go through my material for the meeting due to the tests, I read it up that night and slept late, waking up 4.30am as usual on Tuesday.Getting a badly scored (and failed)Maths results that day is already not good, and I grew tired and very exhausted..perhaps because of the lack of sleep for the past whole week worrying about things.It was the worst exhaustion;mentally and physically;that I gone through this year.I can't even remember when is the last time I felt so worn out.That time, I just wanted to go home and sleep..but I can't as there's a meeting I cannot afford to skip. I had to took all possible time at breaks to sleep in the canteen and in the bus on my way back.And after reaching home and finishing up a few matters, I am only left with 20minutes to take a nap (with my clock placed right in front of my face so that I won't overslept).Then I forced myself out of bed to do my prayers and pick a member up.Surprisingly,at the meeting, I was no longer tired, and ideas just flow out that we are able to roughly sketch out how we are going to bring out out topic on "What is Freedom?" in an interesting way.Later was able to briefly shared this bitter yet another great day with my senior-in-faith, who was going through almost the same thing that day (hey! If you are reading this,please remember to put on alarm when you want to sleep.Surely you don't want me to come banging on your bedroom door everytime a meeting starts!) This month is going to be a busy one...looking at my organiser filled up with so many pen inks scares me sometimes...but hahaha, I like to see it that way. 2nd Sunday was supposingly a "holiday" to me off KK practice,but plans change as I was put in charge of a book sharing session in Soka Family Day...and I just bump into a Soka Fren today while walking back who told me,"Come find me when you are free!!" Looks like I am destined to be busy this month :D Of course, I don't deny times when I will be down, but I learn to accept that I am just human with emotions. I am grateful of the support I felt from my friends and senior-in-faith, as well as other comrades.The important thing is not to be defeated by all these "blues" and continue to press onwards. Suffer what there is to suffer, enjoy what there is to enjoy... "That when your head fills, With problems and worries, And when on sleepless nights, Anxious feelings assail you, The only possible answer is 'Onward!' "

AGAIN!!

Again, someone has awaken me Again, I felt shame on myself Again, I saw something great Again, I felt proud of you However, I won't compare with other However, I will follow my own speed However, I will learn in my own way However, I know I wont forget my identity Yet, there are so much thing to do Yet, I am too slow to stand up Yet, I have done not good enough Yet, I have too much thing to learn from Sometimes , I wonder who am I Sometimes, wonder what can I do Sometimes, I so hate of myself Sometimes, I just don't know what to do Maybe, I never like myself Maybe, I never put effort Maybe, I never chant powerful doimuku Maybe, I am just nobody Perhap, now is time to start Perhap, now is time to share Perhap, now is time to let go Perhap, now is time to fight so, I hope I will proud of myself So, I hope for a better me So, I hope I can tell u something great So, I hope I remember my own determination well, I guess I am somebody Well, I guess I can do something great Well, I guess I just need some confident Well, I guess I have to chant lot more doimoku

Broga

I went to Broga yesterday evening at about 5PM. Great haul from the visitation. I'm glad I did went to Broga as I have many times thought of going, but, somehow something happened and I couldn't make the trip. Yesterday, I went there alone and much has happened to the YWDs there. I felt a little regretful as I didn't follow up on them for a period of time. Nevertheless, they seem happy to see me coming to visit them. I visited 2 YWD and a local aunty. Talked to them quite lengthy as to really catch up stuffs while I was not around with them. Fairly happy that they are still cheerful despite of the problems they faced. I departed from Broga at about 7.40pm. It was quite late as the day was turning darker. I was quite worried while on my way out from Broga. Chanted that I will make it out to Kajang safely and I am grateful for the protection from Gohonzon. Perhaps next time if you guys come to Kajang, I'll bring you guys to Broga, a peaceful small town. Then you guys will understand why I chanted all the way out from Broga (8 miles). I'll be having Kimia Fizik paper today at 3.30pm. Well, wish me luck!

Feelings

Mixed feelings is what my heart feeling now. I don't know what to think or do right now. It's just weird, very weird. A part of me will tell myself : "Wei! Don't think so much, study first!", another part of me will say : "Rest a while, there is still time before the exam...". Whenever I chant to Gohonzon, I'm always thinking of 24K also Kosen-rufu and GCO also my dreams. My eldest sister just sent me an e-mail with links to a site which offers scholarship to study abroad. She said at the end of her e-mail :"Grab the opportunity to study abroad." I don't know what to say. My heart wants to study here in Malaysia and also abroad. I just have to be sure of my mission. Perhaps I'll awaken to my mission after I graduate, with sincere daimoku and also seeking guidance from senior in faith, as what my senior suggested me to do.

I hated viva so much that at some point I just don't want to do anything about it. Let the lecturers say whatever they want and I'll get on with my life. I know very well that I'm running away from it and I just need to keep up my daimoku to tell myself I cannot do that. Why am I taking so many papers in my last semester? Seven papers plus thesis, all together 19 units. My friends hardly have more than 4 papers to go for this semester. Well, part of it was that I still need to fulfill my 100 units to graduate and I took more than 100 units (around 104 or 105 units). I try to learn new things with a heart to learn it not for the sake of passing exams.

Yup, that's my intention of taking other subject from other fields. I attempt on Health Physics, Educational Administration (I did a report on The Philosophy of Tsunesaburo Makiguchi in Soka Education), Basic Chemistry Physics and Radiation Biology, and the rest are my core subjects. To be frank, I actually enjoy learning all the new things and I'm happy about it. There are many quizes and assignments all along, but, I managed to pass all of it o.k if not with flying colours. Whenever I got back my quizes marks, I always remind myself of the purpose of taking those new subjects. I tell myself : "What the heck, just enjoy learning new things lah!". Well, this thought worked miraculously. The quizes marks didn't made any effect on me except I constantly remind myself of really to understand the meaning behind every sentence that I'm learning and to enjoy myself with it.

Now, it's time to talk to my future. What do I want to do? I talked to Mum on Sunday about my planing to study Masters in English. She gave the green light with addition :"You do whatever you want to do and what you love most". I was elated to hear about this from her. Before this, I just didn't have the courage to tell my mum and dad about my decisions, but to the things that my mum have said, I'm very happy that my Mum agree with my dreams. I haven't got the chance to talk to Dad, he's working in Lumut for the time being.

I always pray for my Mum and Dad's health and work. I prayed that Shoten Zenjin will always surround my Mum and Dad in their jobs everyday and during when they are travelling to and fro from home to work place also not forgetting their health too. To both my sisters, I always pray for them the same too. I am very thankful to Gohonzon for protecting my family and friends and I pray that Gohonzon will continue to do so forever. Whenever I chanted to Gohonzon, I feel peace in serenity in me and I'm enjoying chanting Nam-Myoho-Renge-Kyo. The joy just kept pumping out from my heart within and I enjoy it very much. It is just so great that I got to know about this religion and I just have to share it with other people too.

Thank you all for your time and please do come to our blog frequently. To Carryn and Zephyr, you guys are the greatest! Thanks for being there. I pray for your happiness, health and growth in faith. I just couldn't help to think what would I do without you guys!

#Daily Guidance 14th March:

A person who cannot compliment others is lonely and has a narrow heart. On the other hand, when people praise one another, beautiful exchange becomes possible.

#Daily Guidance 12th March:

Faith isn't for anyone but yourself - its all for you. Working to spread the Daishonin's teachings, devoting yourself to chanting daimoku, and studying doctrine while you are young are all tasks that transform your life into a garden of blessings and merits.

Have a great week ahead!

Too happy

I just can't control my laugh, I am very very happy now, this morning, while I eating "tim sum" with my housemate at around 8.30am, my lecturer suddenly phone me, she wanted me to see her as soon as possible, I thought this time terrible d, as my theses need to change again, she wanted me to get her all the references I used in my thesis, and I rushed back home to online to search for atleast something to show her, but nothing much I can do as she want to see me so urgent. But, I do get her something, a little something to show her. In the room : lecturer: " regarding to your thesis, surprisingly your thesis is exactly what I want, I want to know who help you in it" me : " oh, eh..... Well, this i actually I took from internet and there is a template and I.... bla bla bla lecturer : " I want all your references u put in your theses" me : " actually I have no copy for my references as I just copy on the spot and its abit too much to fotostat all of them and also most of it I got from internet, I can show you some info I save from the internet" seeing my info lecturer: " oh, that is very good, its exactly want I want.. bla bla bla conclusion, my theses format is exactly what she want to present to CIDB ( Construction Industry Development Board), my theses will be a guideline for her. Which I don't understand is, my first and second draft, she complain so much till I cried back at home and run back to alor star so frequently, but now she want it so much as I actually only took the behind part of my previous theses to show her as my final draft. Then she told me she haven't even read my first draft.. Sigh.. It's sure save lot of my time if she just read it for the first time as tried so hard to tell her that my theses is exactly what should put if follow my thesis objective but she just refused to listen and made me gaduh with Anna, I wonder why she wanted so much to torture me for so long, maybe this is what we called " lecturer+ supervisor". now my nightmare is over, I can truly enjoy my computer game and back to my normal musical life. I take this opportunity to thank my friends who helped me during the process, especially Anna and Zephyr, help me to translate and find information for me, most of all, thank for keep encouraging me and never give up me. I sometime really behtahan with myself . For my housemate, nana, thank for playing game beside me to motivate me to finish up my thesis,to Uncle Vic, thank for concern and keep asking bout my progress,to Poh geok, thank for teasing me all the time for my laziness, to Jess, thank for doing your theses in such a slow progress as I atleast not the only one who dint pass up my thesis, to mama, thank for borrowing your theses and helping me in all the computer stuff. To wee hau and wen long, thank for not disturb me and a lot more..Not to forget, thank to Gohonzon for help me through all this.

A little update

Recently has been VERY busy finished up my thesis and finding references for my supervisor hardly sleep, maybe due to stress, maybe I am sick, or maybe I am just too busy, but for sure, my eyes now look like panda and I can't think properly. Its quite dangerous for me to cross the road as most of the time I am dreaming and thinking something else,so I choose to stay in student house instead of going out site to eat, to school, to library and etc. So, don't be surprise if suddenly u guys find me become abit skinny, abit older, abit "blackgreen". What a good way to diet, don't need to waste any money and get the result. Well, now I am listening to light and easy, the old pple station as Anna and zephyr said, but I just like it, harmony and I feel calm. Everything will be over after Thursday, whatever the thing happen, I wont forget what Anna told me, to chant. But the weird thing is, everytime I chant, I hardly pray for my thesis, my school stuff and my future, there is a dream I keep continue to pray and to fight for, even after so many year. I am still refuse to let go. I keep remind myself to pray for my thesis, but it will later turned out to be the same prayer. Now, after writing this article, I realized that, the four major prayer indicated my major concern which trouble me and always make me confused with my life. 1- prayer for my family. After my father past away, no one actually know that I actually have a promise with my father before that, I keep it for so long as I so scare I cant makit. And for my mother, you have talked to me too much about your dream, your desire, your expectation, your prayer, and I seem to be the only one who actually listening to you. 2- prayer for special someone to get absolute happiness and pray for the total let go and me live life to the fullest. 3- for my stupid dream, so far away from me, but, I always hope one day the day will come 4- for my own human revolution, then I remember Anna,zephyr, I pray for our friendship forever and I needed to change some of my bad attitude in order to makit turn into the reality as I cant manage to let the second case happen in my life anymore. Maybe after tonite, my prayer should add another one - to not think much. But I always has so much thing to think of, people who know me should know that. I am not actually that happy as shown on my face,but, when I talk a lot, mean, I am happy, when I keep silent, then you should know I am thinking too much already I now really know why Zephyr,Anna and my friends keep adding "don't think too much" behind the SMS. I just received reply from Anna, she said me popo mama, hah, nothing, I just think of her then sent her SMS to know how is she, she has so much paper to study for, really have to study hard for that, well, I needed to learn solve thing alone and really become a comrades for a friend. Anna asked me to go sleep early. Well, I have a long way to go.. Wish everyone dream become reality and everyone happy from now on.

Exam...

It's 2.32 am now. I know I SHOULD be studying right now, but I've decided to online for a while. To take sometime off studying Health Physics (Fizik Kesihatan). Well, before you all try to say something (especially yfen and bh), I've done my revision 2 times at least over this subject, then only I online. I still know that I need to study. These few days have been quite weird for me. I just don't know why. Perhaps, devils are begining to chance when I'm trying to do something correct. Usually like that one lor, when one begins to really stand up for something that is correct, devils will come and kacau. Hehehe... I reackon that is what is happening to me right now. Last Saturday my YWD honbu called me, my YWD chapter vice chief and another girl from Balakong to a lunch at Mines. At first I thought maybe she wants to just have a normal gathering lor. Well, later we found out that we are going to heed our new mission as YWD vice chapter chief. I was a little shocked and happy; but, later did calm myself down. Past few weeks I have been chanting to Gohonzon that I'll strive for Kosen-rufu after my exam and viva (during the long holidays) to find my future. Before this (when I was in second year), I did chant to be promoted as vice chapter chief, it didn't turn out to be so. Perhaps at that particular time I am not ready yet. In fact, when I was in second year did I manage to do my job as a District leader (after so many years... I was promoted to Han when I was just in Form 3... then a District from Form 5). Back then, I didn't really carry out my role as a District leader, not until when I was in my second year in UKM. I believe these are all Gohonzon's best path for me. I still believe that now and forever... Hehehe...

So, what has this got to do with my weird feelings these few days? It coincides with the concert that Galaxy Chamber Orchestra that will be held on the 23rd of April. I was one of the committee members for the concert. Somehow, the first meeting turn out to be a discussion over our feelings about GCO and about the concert. To be frank, when I first heard of the concert, immediately the word 24K flash through my mind. But, to the other committee members, they did have other views regarding this concert. For them, the think of it as just a music appreciation and a concert dedicated to the parents as a form of saying thanks to their patience and time in sending their children to GCO pratices. Yes, I do agree on this, but, can't we do more than just thank them? Can't we make this concert a present to the parents, family, friends and also to Ikeda Sensei?

I was quite upset about this concert. I wanted so much to give the biggest present to Ikeda Sensei. I wanted to perform in front of him. How? I found out that, through 24K I can give my biggest present to Sensei although I couldn't perform in front of him. Yesterday was the second meeting, I didn't say a word throughout the whole meeting and was constantly falling asleep during the meeting. I slept around 3am and woke up at 7.30am to fetch local HSD to Kaikan for cultural activities. This is the lamest reason that had come out from my mouth! I didn't want to look like that... But, devils really is taking opportunity on me now. Deep down in my heart I felt sorry that I've behave like a kid during the meeting. Just now, when I chanted to Gohonzon, I just made a promise to Gohonzon that no matter what, I will feel the happiness each time I go for practices at kaikan - I mean in every practice. Last Saturday's pratice was like hell to me. That is the first time after going for practices for 8 months constantly to feel like throwing my RM800 violin on the floor... Breaking it into bits and pieces and never to touch violin for the rest of my life! Hah... Scary huh... I was shocked too, at myself having those silly thoughts.

Well, I constantly remind myself of this praticular exerpts of Gosho: "To accept is easy; to continue is difficult. But Buddhahood lies in continuing faith." Really, it is easy to aceept, but can one guarantee that he or she will continue faith after 10, 20, 30 or even 50 years? It's hard to say all this, let alone one really realize their mission for the rest of their lives in this world. So, what can we do about it? For me, I would say carrying out the practice of Study, Faith and Action. Continue to strive in the pathway of Kosen-rufu no matter what until the end of my last breath in this world.

It's 3am now, I guess I would stop here for the time being. After my exam on Tuesday, I shall continue here in this lovely Blog. For Yfen and BH, thanks for being there when I'm sad and happy. Thanks very much. You guys are the greatest! The best present from Gohonzon is to have you guys as my life comrades! Cia You!!! Yeah! All the best in your finals! Ganbarimashoo!

Daily encouragement

"It is a mistake always to contemplate the good and ignore the evil, because by making people neglectful it lets in disaster." These are the words of the American writer and social activist Helen Keller (1880-1968).... "We have all seen malicious, wicked people intent on destroying our movement for kosen-rufu. Great good is demonstrated precisely through overcoming great evil. We must not permit our beautiful, harmonious realm of faith to be disrupted by evil. It is crucial to see through such people and take them to task. "The Daishonin's direct successor, Nikko Shonin, harshly rebuked the slander of the Law by Niko, one of the five senior priests who betrayed the Daishonin. He writes: 'If we did not disavow the aberrant teachers who go against the teachings of the Daishonin, we would be guilty of a grave offence'(Hennentai Gosho, 1734). "Evil spreads rampantly, bringing misfortune to all. That's why it is so important to thoroughly refute it and sever it at the root. If we don't, we expose our earnest and good-hearted members to misery."

Happy = Gloomy

Today turns out to be both a happy and gloom day. Happy because I passed up my thesis already. Gloomy because... My feeling is like riding roller coaster. It came down from the highest peak to the lowest ground. My heart nearly BURST. I wonder what will it be like if i have had a heart attack when i received the info. My heart really sank. Sank till the bottom of Ocean Deep. I don't know how to write all this. I have had enough.

Death...

Death awakens the dawn of Life...

JAVA by Emile Svitzer

While doing gongyo and chanting daimoku this morning, I found myself praying for the people of the South Asian countries affected by the recent devastation. Though concerned for all the lives there, I could not help but think about one person in particular: a Men's Division member in India named Java.

I met Java at the Florida Nature and Culture Center (FNCC) Men's Division Conference in August of 2003. Encountering Java and what he had to share has profoundly affected my life, as well as the lives of those with whom I have shared my experience of meeting him.

On the first day of the conference, I noticed that some men, perhaps less outgoing than others, were sitting alone at meal times. I made a determination that at each meal I would find one such man to sit with and hear his story. At the next meal, I noticed an older East Indian gentleman, who appeared to be in his late sixties, sitting alone at a table, so I introduced myself. I'll never forget how his face lit up with excitement as I introduced myself and asked to join him.

After telling me his actual, full name, which I tried to pronounce, he mercifully told me that everyone just calls him "Java" and that he lived in India. When I expressed how impressed I was that he had made such a long journey to the Men's Division conference, Java confessed that he had actually been in Washington State when he heard about the conference and decided to come. He had gone there to visit a member who was facing an obstacle and needed encouragement. Somehow, I was even more amazed by this than the idea that he had traveled all the way from India for the FNCC conference--and I told him so. That's when he laughed at me (in a very nice way) and told me about his first experience meeting SGI President Ikeda.

At the beginning of his practice, about thirty years ago, Java traveled to Japan, where he had the great fortune to receive personal guidance from President Ikeda. At that time, Java was very poor and had spent the last of his money to make the trip. Thus, he immediately complained to President Ikeda that this terrible poverty karma was his big problem in life and the one thing he most wanted to overcome.

Sitting down with him, President Ikeda said, "So, you want a lot of money, then?"

"Yes", Java said.

"And if you get it, what will you do with all this money?"

Of course, Java had a whole list of things he intended to do with the money, but sensing that President Ikeda's question was deeper than this, he did not immediately answer. Sensei went on: "Java, you may ask me for a knife, and I might give it to you. But what will you do with it? Will you use it to hurt someone... to hurt yoursel? Or will you use it to carve an ordinary piece of wood into the image of the Buddha?

"From a Buddhist perspective, everything in life has two purposes: its basic purpose and its true purpose.

"The basic purpose of this building we are sitting in now, for instance, is to protect me from the sun and the rain while I sit here. But the true purpose of the building is to protect me from the sun and the rain while I sit here... and encourage one person. "

The basic purpose of a car is to enable you to travel a long distance. But the true purpose of a car is to enable you to travel a long distance... and encourage one person.

"The purpose of having money is to buy gasoline to put in the car, so that you can travel a long distance. But the true purpose of having money is to buy gasoline to put in the car, so that you can travel a long distance... and encourage one person.

"Why do we pray each morning, during gongyo, for the protection of the Buddhist gods? We pray for the protection of the Buddhist gods so that we will be safe as we drive in our car, and travel a long distance... and encourage one person.

"If you possess a thing, like a car, but do not realize its true purpose, then you may as well throw it away. But if you pray for your desires with a sincere determination to realize its true purpose, then you will always have what you need."

Whoa.

Java told me that he went home from Japan with his "mind totally blown" -- and with a new determination. From that moment on, he began to chant from this new Buddhist perspective, just as President Ikeda prescribed. Shortly thereafter, Java's son became extremely successful and wealthy in his business and retired Java from work. Java has never had to worry about money since. His son provides him all the money he ever needs so that he can go anywhere in the world, at any time... and encourage one person. That's what Java was doing in Washington State.

During our meal, Java went on to share other guidance he had received from Sensei, but now my own mind was too blown to absorb it all. Unfortunately, that was the only time I got to have a private dialogue with Java at FNCC, as I was determined to stick to my plan of sitting with someone new at each meal. So I went around telling all the other men's division if you get a chance to speak with this fellow, Java seek him out...he'll blow your mind." From then on, at meal times, there was always a huge crowd of men around Java's table and all we could do was wave to each other across the room.

Since that FNCC conference, I've shared Java's story with dozens of individuals and at various meetings, hopefully encouraging at least one person. I have determined that in 2005, I will make Java's determination my own, putting President Ikeda's profound guidance to work in my prayers and in my actions.

President Ikeda's daily guidance (For Today and Tomorrow, December 29) reads: "Who is truly great? I hope you can develop the ability to discern true human greatness. A great person is someone who forges unity among human beings through sincere dialogue, armed with a solid philosophy, feet firmly planted on the ground. A great person is one who lives among the people and earns their unshakable trust. Fickle popularity and temporary fads are nothing but illusions."

When I read that, I thought again of Java. I regret that we didn't exchange email addresses. If anyone out there knows how to reach him, please let me know. I would like to know that he is alright. I am praying that he is. And if he is alright, then I know exactly what he's doing.

Chinese New Year Celebration

Well, Happy Chinese New Year!!! This Morning I went to P.D meeting venue for the Chinese New Year Gongyo Meet together with my sisters. Although there were not as many people as we used to have, nevertheless, we had a lot of fun. As usual, we started of the meeting with sonorous gongyo, then there were new year greetings from Sensei, GD and members of the floor. It started off with a WD who stood up in no time to wish all of us the usual CNY greetings, then she sang a new year song. Well, the rest of the members begining to say out their CNY greetings followed by singing songs. I didn't know that my chapter has got that many good singers. Then, it came the time to the next program - lucky draw. This year all three of us (my sisters and I managed to bring back one present each from the lucky draw. My eldest sister got a big hamper. Hehehe... Well, of course it is not because of we got the hamper then only we are happy or what so ever. But, we had most fun in meeting all the MDs and WDs. They looked even younger than the last time I've seen them. Their faces were glowing with the spirit of Gakkai in their heart. I was even happier to meet them than to get presents. To be able to meet them is the biggest present that I can ask for. Mmm... I wish you all a Happy and Prosperous Year ahead! Drink more water ya!! Enjoy!

Chinese New Year

Chinese New Year is just around the corner. I came back to Port Dickson yesterday at around 6pm. Well, it's been a whole semester since I have had the chance to go back on Fridays. Usually, I would go back on Sunday evening and back to Kajang on the next morning. My mom will nag and nag that i shouldn't have come back if I'm too busy or what. The truth is I love going back to P.D. I love P.D. very much. I can't help to think if I wasn't born in P.D. The beaches here is just too beautiful. I drive to school when I was in form 6. Thanks to my dad. It is a fortune for me from Gohonzon that my dad let me drive his car until now. Come to think of it, I never dream of driving to other states, especially to K.L. I even said to myself that I will not drive to K.L my whole life. Well... I guess I've broken that promise when I drove to UKM during my first year second semester (until now).

The reason I drove to UKM is because I wanted to have a transport to go to Student House and also to the meeting venues. Sometimes, the buses here are not time-orientated... So, it get irritated waiting for buses to come and they won't come in time. There goes me and my comrade's chance to go out for meetings. Well, my dad have been kind and generous enough to let me drive to UKM. I thank him from the bottom of my heart.

Back to P.D business. Whenever I drive to school together with my younger sister, the waves, the morning breeze, clouds... will greet us as we go along the road (the beach is along the road to my school, thefore it enables me to experience the breathtaking scenary every morning). Now, whenever I have to chance to go back to P.D, I would just stop by and take afew photos given if the scenary is really beautiful. I love the sunset here, the Sun is just as beautiful as a really big orangy egg yolk. Heheheh... Well, I do hope you guys will have to chance to stop by P.D once in a while to see it for yourself. I'm not promoting P.D, but rather share with you all my feelings towards the beaches.

I have live here for almost 24 years now and frankly speaking, I am not bored at all living here in P.D. I look forward for the chance to go back home if I have one. Home is the best place one could have. Agree? Well, this year's Chinese New Year is not the same. Why? The answer is darn simple... I have you guys here with me celebrating it (especially carryn and zephyr). It has been a great pleasure meeting and knowing you guys. Can't imagine the fortune that Gohonzon has given to me. Anyway, I might be going up to Penang to meet with Carryn on the 18th or 19th February. I hope I can make it. Really hope so. Then if possible, I would like to meet zephyr also. We'll see how it goes.

Thank you guys, for being there with us here in the Blog. I pray that this blog serves as a platform for us to link our hearts (in between us also) together with our great mentor - Ikeda Sensei. Well, I wish you guys Happy Chinese New Year!! Please take care of yourselves during this period and also drink lots and lots of water. (Even my dog also got sick... No sound to bark d..) Well... see you later then!

Because I Have Faith...

because i have faith.. i somehow get to know great comrade because i have faith.. now we got zephyr together with us because i have faith. i believe we will stay togethter because i have faith.......... Carryn continues carryn's because i have faith, i am here today, 2 share the joys n tears, 2 share the ups n downs of every member b'side me. because i have faith, i get to know, this wonderful site, to encourage me to go even further, because i have faith, i b'lieve that we will advance together, to undergo human revolution, to achieve our lifetime mision, and to create the glorious chapter of our life. zephyr 01.07.05 - 2:09 pm # continues zephyr's because i have faith i'm here in Gakkai to share the greatness of gohonzon with my friends and family. because i have faith i have a bunch of great,sincere comrades fighting the battle of kosen-rufu together in 3 different places. because i have faith i am able to overcome whatever that roles to my face. because i have faith i have Carryn, Zephyr here in my life as my life comrade in the path of GREAT KOSEN-RUFU! because i have faith i will never ever leave Gakkai, Gohonzon, and my comrades. because i have faith i believe we will open a greater path of Kosen-Rufu in our respective districts Aren't we? anna Email 02.05.05 - 12:17 am #

Acad S outing

Before the big day. Dragon: Tomorrow morning, everyone has to gather at 7.15 am, 7.30 am sharp, we move to Youth Park to begin our adventure. Bring water, cap, and umbrella (optional) and wear stoking and sport shoe. RM 5 per person. Sister( in mind), wahlauyeh, ,my three year at USM hardly wake up for 8am classes and now you want me to wake up so early . Hmm. must think of something PG: "Eh sister, tomorrow I will follow GE's car go at 8.15 am, I need to past up my assignment lah" Sister: "Can I follow ah? (Yoh...such a nice plan for me, I can sleep one hour more) The thing settle, I will follow GE's car go at 8.15 am, when I reach there, they should be at top of the hill, like that, I don't need to hike anymore. Yeh!!! (Syiok sendiri ) The actual day, Saturday 29/01/05 Woke up at 7.40 am... Sister: "so quite, they all should be out already. Luckily I didn't follow them, siao meh! Sister: "eh, Nana. Why u still here, u not going meh? Nana: "Sure I go lah, how about you?" (wonder why I woke up so late ) Sister: "Go, go go" (wonder why they all still here, don't care lah) After taking shower, changing cloth, packing my stuff, around 8.15 am Wahlauyeh, they still tak jalan, that mean, I have to climb the mountain with them, ish, what a bad time management, messed up my plan. Yoh... 8.30am we all started our journey to Youth Park. (I mean TOGETHER) Title: An intimate encounter with the nature Objectives: strengthen the bonds between Acad S and Soka friends Activities: the birth of Bodhisattva of earth, hiking, strolling, picnic and sharing, the four persecutions, and encouragement (the game sound so bombastic with all the weird name given) First game- finding friends (everyone has to find friend according to the character given to them) I don't understand the game, but eventually me was the person who needed to find a friend with this ( male with belly ) character, I was so blur during the process and I turned out to have only one friend. (Still blur right? Me either) Hiking -The journey was long, ish, I wonder why they all so semangat to hike, it seem to be so easy for them. The hiking took me back to Academic K jungle tracking at ( don't know what jungle d), Anna INVITED me to join them and the activities sound very interesting to me. So, me alone taking 7 hours bus from Kedah to Kajang(the first thing I did after reach Kajang station= rush to KFC and order food without waiting for Anna. Anna, u was late!!). The activities were so fun except for the jungle tracking, my stamina din't allow me to join this kind of activity, and I ended up to be very " memalukan", be the only few person who needed to use short cut to end up our journey.(Anna, don't houlian, actually it was not short at all) Sigh... I will still choose the same way if given second chance. Sorry Acad S! so sia sui !! I hardly can dialogue with nature, everyone is moving, and me like chasing them behind, and of course, me also got once time be the top three in front of everyone (kembang). Uncle was with us teman-ing us (actually he was quite slow also, not to say teman), but I enjoyed the process, and was happy I can make it to the top. Yeh!!!!!!! Bravo to the juniors who in charge for the event! We have a game on top of the hill, and Bravo to Poh geok, Nana, and most of the junior who CANNOT COUNT and abit slow toward mathematic.hah, ( eh uncle, we should not show off lah, although we pandai and good in mathematic, its not so nice for us to be so OUTSTANDING ) bwahahhahhh..... The game down to the hill even more exciting, I am proud to be the "not win" team,(we not kalah,we just purposely let them win) what to do? Uncle was in the other team, I cannot let him loose, he is Academic S's TOP Advisor...must let him kembang abit .Furthermore, he is UNCLE, my mum teach me to respect older and I respect him as UNCLE. So old d still want to play, sigh, syiok sendiri!! Also thank to Kang Kang for prepared such a nice lunch for us, (actually, got chicken everything is ok with me already). Conclusion: The outing was so fun and you guys really made my life at Acad S completed for prepared such an adventure for me. Bravo again to all the people who involved. Thank to Hai Long.. you made me proud to be Kedahan ! keep advance! To Choy Yee, Ivy, Zhen Yin,and the junior who I don't know how to spell your name, you know who you are. Bravo and you guys are so much better than anyone of us during our first year in Acad s. Weldone! Never stop I'll strive without rest, Others can do as what they like, I'll never stop moving forward. Those who wish to stop and rest can do so. I will continue to advance to the end Those want to complain, can please themselves I'll walk the path I have chosen No matter what. ( Daisaku Ikeda ) P/s... Zephyr, rugi betul u dint join... none of you from engineering campus come, wasted. Here many lenglui junior u know ah? Wasted

Busy...

Busy... Busy... And more Busy... Well, Looks like we are really busy huh? Anyway, Perhaps, We should focus on the task at hand, And although the blog is a little quiet than usual, It is still functioning. Thank you all To stop by once in a while, Checking whether the blog is ALIVE or DEAD. I assure you that, This blog is here forever and ever Until the end of time...